A Tale as Long as Time...

Sigh...

It sucks when you see a friend in pain.
It's even worse when you see your best friends who has always been there for you in emotional pain.

The sad part is, we all saw this coming, we all saw that it would eventually have to come down to them breaking up, it was inevitable. But we didn't see how hard it would hit all of us. Top that with not know what to do about it. It just sucks.

Only time will tell, sadly enough.

Pain, Break Steady.

Life at this moment sucks.

Trying to get in shape is hard, but as your trying to do it, you get a gum infection, on top of your wisdom tooth acting up, on top of a cracked tooth, its hard.

Last week, nothing seemed to be helping, lack of sleep, and the incredible pain was kiling me. All night I would wander back and forth from the kitchen to the living room. Now I know what a zombie feels like. Hell, I was even moaning...

Meditation was working for a while. During thise sleepless nights I would sit there, blank and empty. I just let go of everything, and the pain left. Then I would break out of it, and the pain would come back, and I woulden't be able to get back into that state of mind.

Yesterday was the worse, but I was saved.

It's go to know I always have people there for me.

Now that I'm on the regiment of Biaxin, and Vicodin (which only costed 5$) I'm feeling better, but its still gonna be a long week.

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Now playing: We Are Scientists - Can't Lose

This is what it should be like...

"This is what living is like..."
When Troy said this, it made me realize how good I have it. He looked so in place there, on the green of the golf course. He was at home there, you could see it in his eyes. True happiness...

Thats why I understand what Esty is doing. He is really looking deep inside him self, look for who he really is, and I admire him for it, kinda...

I found myself a long time ago, I don't remember the exact time it happened, bu when it did it was a light bulb. An epiphany of sorts.

Being there, on that walk with the guys, just walking, no care of anything in the world, we were living the moment.

As random as this is, and as drunk I am now...

This is life...

DRUNK v2.5

So... yeah my heart was just broken, and Esty is making me feel terrible about it all.

BTW its v2.5 cause I wrote a 2.0 and no one will ever see it again. I was so drunk I didnt publish the post. I did save it some where...

Maybe I'll do a lost posts post...

Fukkin screwdrivers are ruining my night.

I wish I wasn't drunk, I want to witness this event...

I want to just... urgh....

Sigh...

Drunken realities are the worst cause they bring out the fear and loathing I have for this pitifully excuse of a world.

Now thats a line for the book...

A Hewlet Wet Dream